Coffee Chat 3.18.19
It’s been awhile since we’ve sat and had coffee, so I thought today might be a nice day to do so. I imagine we’re at a nice small coffee shop with lots of windows and we’re sitting at at table by one of those windows so we can feel the warmth from the sun. We’d talk about how the weather seems to finally be turning around and I’d laugh about how I’m rebelling against boots today and have decided to wear flats instead. I’d ask if you’ve had any water issues with the rain and melting going on and tell you I’m thankful so far we don’t have any water problems at our house.
We’d shift from small talk into some deeper stuff at this point. I’d ask how you’re doing and what’s been new in your world and listen while you shared. Then you’d ask the same of me and I’d talk about how things have really been going pretty well. I’d remind you of the last time we were together and how I talked about how I was learning to live my life for myself again and figuring out what truly brings me joy. I’m happy to say I’m still doing that. I’m only saying yes to things that I want to do. I’m spending time with people who lift me up and want to help me be a better person. I’m also taking some chances and risks on some new things and so far it’s paying off. I’m getting more active again and feeling less sloth like, which was one of my major goals for this month. So dare I say, I feel good and I feel happy?
Why is it so hard to say it out loud when we’re in a good place? I find that it’s kind of a weird thing, like, if I say that I’m doing well, does that jinx it? I have that “other shoe drop” mentality but I can’t help it, I come from a long line of worriers (hi mom!) Instead of the “what if this goes wrong” thoughts, I’m trying hard to use the Rachel Hollis method of “what if it all goes right?” I’m not saying I’m perfect, but my negative self talks are happening less frequently.
Maybe I don’t say it out loud so much about being happy or in a good place because I know the world around us isn’t always so much. World events are scary sometimes and I absolutely do care and have concern for those things, but I also know that life is short and I just can’t dwell on it. I can do my best to give back and make my voice heard, I can teach my son to be a good person, but I can do what I need to for my own sanity too.
Anyway, those are my weird thoughts on happiness. I’m just trying to go with it and own it instead of feeling like I have to hide it away, if that makes sense. I see you nodding your head, so I think you get it! My cup is just about empty here, so I guess it’s just about time for us to part for this month. As always I enjoyed our time together and I look forward to doing it again. Maybe by next month we’ll be sipping cold brew coffee and sitting outside! We can hope!