Finding My Voice

If you’ve been following me since the old blog then you know that I used to be part of a traveling Christian music group that retired in 2015.  At that time I was physically and emotionally drained for a number of reasons that matter little now. So, after the last Mass the group did together, I gave myself permission to take a break. Prior to that group I had been singing with a group in some form for over 20 years. So it was a bit strange to not be part of anything at that point, but I truly needed that break.

Now that it’s been over a year I feel rested, refreshed and renewed. The feelings I had when we were done have pretty much faded away. And I have been finding myself ready to jump back into singing in some fashion again. I didn’t want something with the same type of commitment level, but I have felt a strong pull to do something.

I found the perfect solution at one of the churches we used to sing at with our old group. They have a Women’s Ensemble that rehearses twice a month and leads music at liturgy once a month. Jackpot! There was a small audition process that I passed with flying colors and now I have found myself part of a group again for the first time in over a year.

The first rehearsal I was still in headcold haze, so I didn’t feel much. I hardly could sing because my voice still wasn’t quite back. So while it felt nice to be doing it, I didn’t feel what I was expecting to.  But at the second rehearsal – boom. My cold was gone, the music started to come together, I was even asked to sing a solo at our first Mass. While singing the piece I have the solo in I felt my soul come alive. My heart felt light and free. My voice was back – and I’m not just talking about back from my headcold. I think I lost my voice somewhere along the way in all that I went through last year. But it’s still there. I just had to find it – and in the process I found myself. I can’t wait to sing at Mass this weekend. I’m back. I’m home. I’m happy.



3 thoughts on “Finding My Voice

  1. That is wonderful Beth! I’m so glad that taking a break from singing was just what you needed to come back refreshed and re-energized about it. And how great to find a group that seems to be the perfect fit!
    Singing is one of those things I really wish I could do (I mean, I can carry a tune and be on-key for the most part, but I’m definitely no singer). I LOVE music and it’s always been a really important part of my life, and it’s already a huge part of Jona’s as well.
    I’d love to hear you sing sometime!!

  2. I love this post so much!!! I know how much you loved singing. I’m glad that the break was perfect for you and that you have found yourself again. This makes my heart so happy to read! All the hearts and love to you!!!

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